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|Friday, August 18th, 2006|
I've missed just having a journal.
I'll transfer blogs soon.
A lot of things are new, but yet, nothing worth writing about currently.
Hopefully, I'll have a much better post soon! LOL
|Tuesday, March 21st, 2006|
So I weighed in yesterday and lost the most weight so far in the three weeks that I've been dieting, 3.8 lbs!
That's SO awesome for 1 week!
Total, I've lost 8 lbs. in three weeks.
I'm really looking forward to next Monday because I WILL lose 2 lbs
which will put me at 10lbs, which was my goal for the month.
I walked with Brandi on our lunch yesterday and I walked today.
I feel good.
This isn't even a hard way to diet.
I'm making decisions with each thing I eat and I'm trying not to
obsess over food as well.
AND not be a martyr, which is usually why I quit dieting, I get so
martyr-y and whiny.
Auge's been really supportive too!
He bought me a really nice Weight Watchers cook book and is eating good
and is eating the healthy stuff I make.
The meetings help too, because when you only weigh once a week, it makes it easier to set little goals like:
I'm gonna drink a lot of water today
I'm gonna take a multi-vitamin
I'm going to eat 5 servings of veggies/fruit
I'm gonna lose 2 lbs this week.
I've always been fairly responsible with setting goals.
Like with my house, my car, the kids. I've done good and I feel
like my weight is like the only thing I haven't really been in control of.
I know that setting a goal of losing 2 or 3 lbs a week feels awesome because my goal with dieting before was to lose like 80 lbs a week.
Now, I know that is RETARDED but that is kinda how it was.
I am so goddamned impatient (absolutely by far the worst thing about me)
that I really think that I have to lose it or want to lose it in a week or two, so I never really thought that losing 2 lbs was great in a week.
I was telling Kayvon over lunch that I'd lost almost 3lbs and I said it sort of disappointed and he said, "that's good, that good for ANY diet"
And that made me feel better, and of course I know I can't lose all my weight in a week, but I was always thinking, "80 lbs" when I should be thinking 2lbs this week or 3lbs this week.
This has helped my focus TREMENDOUSLY!
After weighing in yesterday and I don't even want to eat the foods I used to, now I'm sure it won't always be like that, but it is today.
I'm worried about vacationing.
I'm sure I'll eat a few things that aren't so healthy, but I can control
how much of it I eat and I can control my breakfast and lunch if we go
out to Persian for dinner. I don't have to say, "FUCK IT" and eat shitty
If WW has taught me anything is has taught me that I can eat whatever I want in moderation.
And you really can. Just eat a little bit and eat the really good stuff too!
I'm not even that scared about it, by the time we go, I may have lost 15lbs or something and why do I want to flush that away? Current Mood: cheerful
|Monday, March 20th, 2006|
|Auge and Auge's Car
SO Auge fixed his car, this Sunny Sunny Sunday.
I am very happy and very mad.
I'm mad because I've drove Auge to work for like 5 months because
we were going to buy him another car. Of course, fucking money always
seems to elude us to other bills, to fences, to never a nest egg.
Anyway. It cost like $200 to fix.
two. hundred. dollars.
After having to borrow that dipshit Patrick's car, asking my mom for shit, which I hate because my mom only loves herself and she can't do anything for her fucking kids.
Not getting to sleep in.
getting home after 6 everynight.
I could kill Auge!
Basically, yes, I told him we could get him another auto, but I also
said that I think it's just the alternator and we should fix it.
A long ass time ago.
The funny thing is, is that I drove to work today, and I missed dropping
Bean off, because I always stay with him for 10 minutes and I know Auge doesn't have time to do that. And I missed talking with Auge too and being with him in the morning.
I don't feel very well this week, mentally or physcially.
Neither one more then the other.
I can just barely get myself to work and back home.
I can't stand the idea of stopping anywhere or leaving again once I get home.
So I am trying to tell myself that this week I CAN stay home and maybe next week too. Just work and go home.
I'll try. I will seriously try.
I had a GREAT weekend for the most part. I gave Jessica a frost, which turned out really cute. It's funny what a few highlights can do, she went from 12 to 14 in a half an hour.
Jessie also made us dinner with my help:Creamy Garlic Potato Soup.
A weight watchers recipe. It turned out reallllly good.
I had no idea low fat shit could EVER taste good.
So far I've lost 6 lbs. I do weigh in tonight. I've been pretty good, but I had some teriyaki yesterday, so I hope I didn't gain!!!
We also worked out the fence issue with our trashy neighbors, well atleast with one of the trashy neighbors.
We had a screaming match and then we made up, though I'm so fucking nasty tongued, that I'm sure they won't forget what I said, whether they forgive me or not.
I wish I could control my mouth!!!!
I also took the Bean to see Chelsey in jail. He sat on my lap, and I held the phone to his ear so he could talk to her through the glass.
I felt bad that he couldn't hug or kiss her, but they put eachother's hands against the glass.
I think it actually benefitted Jullian to see her, he's been asking about
her 4 and 5 times a day and he hasn't seen her since December.
So I think it was good for him, he only asked about her at dinner.
He just asked where she was.
I also think it's good because Chelsey may see that I won't keep him from
her and she might sign him over and we won't have to go to trial, though I'm confident we will win.
Well, this is a long and scattered entry and I'm fucking starving!
Ali brought me some Turkish Stuffed Grapeleaves for lunch.
He's so sweet. Thinking about Brandi and I over the weekend!
He comes over to my desk, "Cassy I brought you and Brandi some lunch I made!"
I love that man.
It cracks me up how men love to feed me.
I have to tell you, that this happens often.
I have guys at work all the time, just last week Mark brought me
chocolate chip cookies he made and he only brought ME some.
The cutest thing is, I only see Auge get jealous when some guy is trying
to feed me!!! LOL
A little while back Rick was feeding me a bite of something and Auge says, "UM, DON'T feed my WIFE!"
AND Auge always gives me the first bite of whatever he's eating.
ALWAYS. And he likes to feed it to me.
I love that man too probably cause he loves me so much.
|Friday, March 17th, 2006|
So there have been 3 shootings at Denny's in California this week.
Why anyone is suprised is beyond me.
Every time I walk into a Denny's I want to shoot someone.
It's like when God always sends tornados through trailor parks.
I haven't been to Denny's in over five years. I hate Denny's.
I hate employees of Denny's, I hate the customers at Denny's, I hate Denny's food, Denny's decor, I hate Denny's.
|Wednesday, March 15th, 2006|
|More Chuck. God I love these!
Chuck Norris always has sex on the first date. Always.
According to Einstein's theory of relativity, Chuck Norris can actually roundhouse kick you yesterday.
Chuck Norris once ate three 72 oz. steaks in one hour. He spent the first 45 minutes having sex with his waitress.
Chuck Norris is 1/8th Cherokee. This has nothing to do with ancestry, the man ate a fucking Indian.
The quickest way to a man's heart is with Chuck Norris's fist.
Chuck Norris's girlfriend once asked him how much wood a woodchuck could chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood. He then shouted, "HOW DARE YOU RHYME IN THE PRESENCE OF CHUCK NORRIS!" and ripped out her throat. Holding his girlfriend's bloody throat in his hand he bellowed, "Don't fuck with Chuck!" Two years and five months later he realized the irony of this statement and laughed so hard that anyone within a hundred mile
radius of the blast went deaf.
At birth, Chuck Norris came out feet first so he could roundhouse kick the doctor in the face. Nobody delivers Chuck Norris but Chuck Norris
If you ask Chuck Norris what time it is, he always says, "Two seconds till." After you ask, "Two seconds to what?" he roundhouse kicks you in the face.
Heart disease may be the new leading cause of death in women age 45 to 65, but Chuck Norris is still the leading cause of death in men age 0 to 125.
|Tuesday, March 14th, 2006|
|Am I Job???
I totally feel like Job.
Tho he had it much worse.
Not a second after the new, beautiful, fence is up, cedar smell filling the block, do our drunk neighbors come
out bitching and complaining.
The fence is too high, not HOA approved
the Fence is too high off the ground
You don't have a gate where there was a gate before (WTF?? WHY DO YOU CARE?)
There's a piece of untreated cedar
There are some rocks in our yard
fucking on and on and on, the drunk ass even threatened this KID (like 17) that he would beat him with his
And this morning his trashy wife is outside taking pictures of the fence.
I just started crying because I am SO FED UP with assholes. Seriously.
At that moment I really wanted to burn her house down.
Kill her dogs.
Beat her until she fell on the ground, climb on top of her, beat her some more, beat her till her
face was a bloody fucking mushy mess.
I really fucking think I am close to killing someone.
I am reallllllly tired.
TIRED of dealing with shit EVERY FUCKING SINGLE FUCKING COCK SUCKING DAY of my life.
There is something troublesome every day. each day, each morning.
Sure, Job was probably a better man and you know, believed in god, but I don't care.
I have an idea of what it must be like to be like, "FUCK!!! I CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS SHIT ANYMORE!!!"
And I think that's what Job said almost verbadum in the unedited version. Current Mood: cranky
|Monday, March 13th, 2006|
I lost 3lbs this week :)
I just wish I wasn't going on vacation so soon!
Meh, I'll try and I know I'll be a lot more conscience of
what I'm eating, therefore I may make better decisions even
when I'm not RIGHT on target.
The new fence should be completed today, that will be awesome.
We got them to haul a lot of stuff away too, so we might just have
a nice yard this spring/summer.
I'm looking forward to bbq's.
I really want a new deck, I want new carpet and tile too, but that's
a dream with the kid and the animals. Way too much to deal with.
I'll stick with the new fence for now and possibly getting the house
painted by the end of the summer. that reallllllly needs to happen, some
bare wood is showing which could mean rot.
We've just got to keep this house up.
We intend to make it a rental by 2008.
That's the goal.
We need a bigger house already, but that's gonna have to wait too!!!!
$ Money $ Money $ Money $ Money $ Money $ Money $ Money $ Money
I have a lot to do before the vacation.
I wanted to get my hair cut and to tan a bit...
And buy just a few new outfits...I dunno about the last one tho.
I should call Kornel and Kayvon about the trip, we should really
start to map it out, Kayvon has a good start, he wants us to do Napa first and the whole SF experience early. That way the rest of the week
can be a little more low key.
Sounds good to me.
I will miss Bean soooo much!
And Oscar, though it's going to be nice to go to kiss Auge in bed
and actually be able to then be interupted by either oscar's tongue or balloon knot.
I've had a good week and an even better weekend. Really good weekend!
I'm a little tired today, Jullian climbed into our bed and I couldn't move him for over an hour, and our bed just isn't big enough for auge, me, oscar and jullian.
I'm sooooo glad the day is almost half over.
I hope my 3lbs stays until weigh in tonight.
I hate weighing at night!
I just got lucky because I had a Dr. appt this morning and got weighed.
I'll be pissed if I didn't lose as much tonight because I ate lunch!
I'm really looking forward to getting home to my family and having dinner
and watching a little tv with the kids before going to sleep.
Sounds lame to most, but I really love it.
Hopefully the fence will be allll done too!
I love the smell of cedar.
This weekend Auge and I can do some weeding. That's a good work out! Current Mood: cheerful
|New Chuck Norris lines-Thanks Kayvon
There is no theory of evolution, just a list of animals Chuck Norris allows to live.
Chuck Norris once visited the Virgin Islands. They are now The Islands.
Helen Keller's favorite color is Chuck Norris.
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles is based on a true story: Chuck Norris once ate a turtle whole, and when he crapped it out, the turtle was six feet tall and had learned karate.
Chuck Norris once killed five people by cracking his knuckes.
Chuck Norris invented the clitoris as a joke.
When Chuck Norris does a pushup, he isn't lifting himself up, he's pushing the earth down.
Chuck Norris' calendar jumps from March 31st to April 2nd. No one fools Chuck Norris.
Chuck Norris can slam a revolving door.
Some people like to eat frogs' legs. Chuck Norris likes to eat lizard legs. Hence, snakes.
When Chuck Norris talks, everybody listens. And dies.
For some, the left testicle is larger than the right one. For Chuck Norris, each testicle is larger than the other one.
Superman wears Chuck Norris pajamas. Current Mood: amused
|Wednesday, March 8th, 2006|
Well, I've lost 2lbs this week, almost 3.
I'd love to lose 3.5 a week, but that is kind of a lot and I am positive
it will require exercise.
Shitty. I am going to try tho.
Today is my work friend's birthday, Duane. He's 44.
I work with about 40 people, Duane is one of my favorites.
I bought him some starbucks caramels and a card and I'm taking him out
to lunch. We're bringing our other friend, Mike O. He's a totalllll hippie!
It looks like I've forgotten my counter, so I will have to be really diligent
and careful when we go out.
I still feel pretty good about the whole dieting thing. I actually feel
I won't go into detail about the physcial part, but I am doing better. I am also pretty tired.
I don't know if it's the significant decrease in calories or if it's pyscho-symatic. Probably
I'm not even excited about my trip to SF.
I know I will be later in the month, but right now we have a Fence issue and it's overshadowing everything.
Our fucking neighbors have these HUGE dogs that keep jumping on our fence to get to Oscar.
Our fence is decrepid, so we have to get a new one. It's $2400.00 and we need it built right away.
that's one problem, it's expensive. We've been saving a lot of money for Auge to get a car, and now
we have to put up that goddamned fence. The neighbors will help, but it will still cost a lot.
The next problem is, I'm worried the dogs are going to ruin the NEW fence too!
They weigh like 400 lbs combined. They need to get a fence built or they need to tie them up so they cannot
reach my fence. Stupid clampit fuckers.
Grrr. So aggravating!
I just hope that we actually get a tax return this year. It'd be the first time we got money BACK in years.
I'm sure we will, now that we've owned the house for a full year. God I hope so. I'll know this week....
I'm dreading the thought of leaving Jullian for a week. I'm half tempted to bring him!
That wouldn't be a vacation tho.
It's just that he hasn't seen Chelsey for months because she's in jail and he misses her horribly.
It's really heart breaking.
And for the very first time this morning he got all teary-eyed when I dropped him off at day care.
I was leaving and I said, "Bye Bean" and he started rubbing his eyes and his bottom lip popped out and he said,
"Momma" I came back and sat with him for another five minutes, I always stay ten minutes, so today was fifteen.
He's getting really cuddle-ly and sweet. Our parent class called this age the PAL STAGE because they want to pal
around with you and they are sweet at three.
I have a lot to do when I get off work, I'm working extra and doing some side jobs and I miss my family.
We just need a little more time to save and then I hope to just work my one job and be with them and the rest of
my family and friends.
We need to pay off our debt quickly, get Auge a car, and start a ROTH IRA and then I'll be reallllllllly happy.
I'm glad we didn't spend all that money on a trip because I've bitched about saving, but I do need a vacation.
I'm sure I'll have a great time, but I will miss Bean. I'll call him every single day tho, just like in England. Current Mood: sad
|Tuesday, March 7th, 2006|
|Thursday, March 2nd, 2006|
|You Are 60% Evil|
You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.
Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.
SO we have finally decided on where we'd like to go.
Of course, we'd like to go everywhere.
I've bitched and bitched about wanting to pay my bills off, so I decided
NOT to spend 2 grand on a vacation.
Instead, Auge, Kayvon and I will drive to see Korny in SF.
It'll be pretty sweet actually.
Auge and I will get to get away, we get to see Kornel, who will be
on Spring Break and we'll be there for his birthday too.
And we get to have Kayvon there too, it's going to be lots of fun!
I plan to go to Alcatraz, The Napa Valley Wineries, China Town, and lots of other shit and I can't wait to see Kornel, I realllllllllllyyyyyy miss him and I'm incredibly jealous he's been hanging with Dawnielle!
Auge and I promised eachother that we'd spend one night alone though.
We'd like to book a bed & breakfast and stay one night to ourselves, as
we don't even get to be alone at home, I think it's important we are alone on vacation at least for ONE night!
And we can afford to stay somewhere really cozy and nice as this trip is gonna be very inexpensive! Current Mood: excited
Since My pants incident I've joined weight watchers and
have downloaded every episode of the Biggest Loser, it's super inspirational, though I hate reality TV, I like this show.
It makes me work harder.
I feel good too, not martyr-y like usual :)
|The funniest shit ever
I'm at work, in the mail room
I squat down to get some files
My black cords rip from my asscrack to my knee
like a bolt of lightening
I have no drawers on
I quickly stand up, turn around
and to my sheer amazement not one of my FOURTY co-workers saw
Now I am panicking because I didn't wear a coat and my bare ass
is hanging out for all to see, should they come in the mailroom
I inch along the wall
my head is turning around like an owl
I spot a coat on a guy's chair about 2 meters away
he's not there, so I dart over and wrap his coat around my ass
Call Brand. for back up, she comes laughs her ass off and drives
me to Old Navy to get pants
BUT NOT BEFORE SHE TELL'S MY BOSS AND MY BOSS'S BOSS WHO COME TO SEE!!!!!
It's been 3 days since it happened and everyone in the office
now knows I don't wear any draws.
And they keep saying "How's the pants today?"
I also found a roll of duck tape on my desk with a message that
said, "In case of Pants Emergency"
LOL Current Mood: cheerful
|Thursday, February 16th, 2006|
Saturday, the 18th we'll be celebrating Jon's birthday and my birthday at my huge ol' house party, though the house is rather small!!!!
I hope you'll alllll attend!!!
I always saw twenty-three as the perfect age.
I have to say that turning 25 is sort of a big deal for me.
I know it seems dumb if you are way surpassed 25 and feel old, but I don't know. This is the first time age has really bothered me, like I feel unaccomplished and my life is so far different then what I pictured as a youth.
It's cool though.
I think everyone feels that way.
|Friday, February 10th, 2006|
I deleted that retarded post because I was bitchy and hormonal and feeling sorry for myself.
I'm having my party and I'm not going to be a butthead.
ALL my friends are invited, it's the 18th :)
The saturday after next!
|Wednesday, January 25th, 2006|
The REAL Chuck Norris facts:
1. Chuck Norris' tears cure cancer. Too bad he has never cried.
2. Chuck Norris does not sleep. He waits.
3. Chuck Norris does not hunt because the word hunting infers the probability of failure. Chuck Norris goes killing.
4. The Dinosaurs looked at Chuck Norris the wrong way once. ONCE. (2nd fav)
5. Chuck Norris counted to infinity - twice.
6. Chuck Norris sold his soul to the devil for his rugged good looks and unparalleled martial arts ability. Shortly after the transaction was finalized, Chuck roundhouse kicked the devil in the face and took his soul back. The devil, who appreciates irony, couldn't stay mad and admitted he should have seen it coming. They now play poker every second Wednesday of the month.
7. When the Boogeyman goes to sleep every night he checks his closet for Chuck Norris.
8. If you can see Chuck Norris, he can see you. If you can't see Chuck Norris you may be only seconds away from death.
9. Chuck Norris is currently suing NBC, claiming Law and Order are trademarked names for his left and right legs. (My PERSONAL favorite!!!)
10. The chief export of Chuck Norris is pain.
11. Chuck Norris has already been to Mars; that's why there are no signs of life there.
12. When Chuck Norris sends in his taxes, he sends blank forms and includes only a picture of himself, crouched and ready to attack. Chuck Norris has not had to pay taxes ever.
13. If at first you don't succeed, you're obviously not Chuck Norris.
14. Chuck Norris built a time machine and went back in time to stop the JFK assassination. As Oswald shot, Chuck met all three bullets with his beard, deflecting them. JFK's head exploded out of sheer amazement.
15. Chuck Norris sleeps with a night light. Not because Chuck Norris is afraid of the dark, but the dark is afraid of Chuck Norris
16. Chuck Norris' penis is so large that it actually warps the fabric of space-time. Indeed some physicists now theorise that the passage of time is mearly a byproduct of Norris' colossal erections. This is known as the "Chuck Norris' big cock theory of space-time".
17. Chuck Norris is not hung like a horse... horses are hung like Chuck Norris
18. As a teen Chuck Norris impregnated every nun in a convent tucked away in the hills of Tuscany. Nine months later the nuns gave birth to the 1972 Miami Dolphins, the only undefeated and untied team in professional football history.
19. Chuck Norris is like a dog, not only because he can smell fear, but because he can piss on whatever the fuck he wants.
20. If Chuck Norris is late, time better slow the fuck down. (sooo funnnnyyyy)
21. A blind man once stepped on Chuck Norris' shoe. Chuck replied, "Don't you know who I am? I'm Chuck Norris!" The mere mention of his name cured this man blindness. Sadly the first, last, and only thing this man ever saw, was a fatal roundhouse delivered by Chuck Norris.
22. Before he forgot a gift for Chuck Norris, Santa Claus was real.
23. Chuck Norris doesn't read books. He stares them down until he gets the information he wants. (OMG! LMAO)
24. To prove it isn't that big of a deal to beat cancer. Chuck Norris smoked 15 cartons of cigarettes a day for 2 years and aquired 7 different kinds of cancer only to rid them from his body by flexing for 30 minutes. Beat that, Lance Armstrong.
25. A Handicap parking sign does not signify that this spot is for handicapped people. It is actually in fact a warning, that the spot belongs to Chuck Norris and that you will be handicapped if you park there.
26. Someone once tried to tell Chuck Norris that roundhouse kicks aren't the best way to kick someone. This has been recorded by historians as the worst mistake anyone has ever made.
27. Chuck Norris can touch MC Hammer.
28. Chuck Norris lost his virginity before his dad did.
29. Superman owns a pair of Chuck Norris pajamas. Current Mood: geeky
|Monday, January 23rd, 2006|
|So planning a party...
So I would like to plan a party for Jon and I.
It's our birthdays next month and we haven't had a house party since New Year's 2005.
I'd love to have another, though it'll be a little less roomy this time round.
The other thing is, I dogged my friends on their birthdays, Clayton and Rachel.
I'd like them to come but wouldn't blame them if they said fuck off.
I didn't even call Angie on hers, though I thought of her.
I'd love to stop being such a shitty friend!
I just want my friends to bring a dish, come over, drink and laugh until late or even morning.
I hope it works out.
I miss EVERYONE!!!!!
I hope jon house sits!
|Friday, January 20th, 2006|
It's not REALLY only 3:00 is it?
oooh DAMN IT!!! it seems like 6:30!!!
wow this week has really dragged on wouldnt you agree there Chuck.
yes sir, there Brandon....
I just about had it.
My balls are achin' to get outta this place!
mine too..... oh had to re-adjust em'
yep, I had to move mine about as well.
Those damn things get all under my butt, see, they hang real low
yep mine were just stickin to my leg. when mine get under my butt it hurts real bad if i sit down really hard. do yours just go down your pant leg?
yeah a bit, just enough so each ball can go on either side of the hem of my favorite 501's there Brandon
you don't like it when I talk like this do ya, cause that'd be GAY
hell nah bra i aint gay i just like long walks on the beach, construction work.